Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Day 30

Day 30- A picture of someone you miss. AAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! I miss EVERYONE!!!!!! Sooooo, I got alot of pics... again. ;) Lets just say I miss everyone I grew up with. *heartheartheartheartheartheartheartheartheart* LOVE YOU ALLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!! You'll never be forgotten. *heart* :) Last day of this *sniffsniff* oh well... just means I won't be posting much anymore ;) :P sooo... ennnjjjjjjjjjoooooooooooyyyyyyyyyysssssssssss *heart*
Me and one of my lil 'bfs'/buddies, Jesse. He's such a cutie but full of energy!!! :P

One of my best girlfriends. love ya, faithyfufu!!! :P (sisterly love, y'all.... that's all.)

Looooooooooooonnnnnnnnnngggggggggggggg time ago!!!! This was in 1999 I believe. I'm the one with the pinkish shirt and hat on and my first ever bff, Sam, is the other one eating........................ her finger :P Love ya, Sam!!!! Missed you over the years but thankful we got back in touch! *heart*
My Grandpa Hamelund and our Golden Retriever, Sadie. Grandpa left us in 2004 (i believe) and Sadie left us last year. :'( Miss you both terribly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My other lil 'bf'/buddy, Isaiah. Miss your hugs TERRIBLY, Saiah!!!!!! You're smile is sooooo stinkin contagious, I LOVE your laugh, and your hugs do me wonders!!!!! Love ya!!!! *heart* {and all you other Hallman kids, sorry i didn't post all of y'all's pics lol}

My lil 'sis'/bff Krista. She's the older sis of Saiah. So much giggles, laughter, tickling, hitting, tears, hugs, smiling with her. Miss ya, Kris!!!!!!! love ya!!!! *heart*

My other lil 'sis'. Love you, Hannah!!!! You are soooooooooooooo awesome and I miss ya terribly!!!!

This lil gal. Oh, I love her to death. Her smile and laugh are also soooooooooo stinkin contagious!!!!!!! She can make anyone laugh or smile. She's so cute and I'm blessed to be her Brookie Unni. *heart*

My older sis, Bekah. *heartheartheartheart* I love ya Sissy!!!!!!! We have the most awesome, random, awkward, emotional conversations!!!!!!!!!! So glad your my sis and I hope to see ya soon!!!!

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Time For Everything

Ever heard the saying "Time heals all wounds"??? I know I have. Especially just recently. As many of y'all know, I just moved from the only home I knew. It is very difficult.... hardest thing I ever had to face. I was hurt. The pain was sooooo deep. I felt as though I had been stabbed with a really sharp knife and that someone kept twisting that knife in my heart. It hurt really bad. I left my home and 'family' on August 1st of last year. Hardest day in my life. I didn't mind the moving or cleaning or stress, but the thing that hurt me the most was the tears. The first person that I said a deep good bye to was M.O.M (my other mom). Mrs. Hallman has been like a mother to me ever since I met them. When I said good bye to the Hallmans, I said good bye to her first. It was hard. I could feel the love when we all said good bye. I didn't want that to go. As we settled in our new area, I kinda fell into a rebellion of sorts. I wanted (still do) to go back home sooooooooo bad. The pain was just too hard for me to bare. I felt like curling up in a corner and dying. I didn't wanna feel anymore. I wanted to stop feeling anything and everything. I shut the world out and tried to not let anyone in. Sadly, this is true, I felt as though God just forgot about me and was enjoying hurting me. I was angry. Sad. Heartbroken. Hurt to the 10th degree. I even shut Him out. The only one I let in was my older sister, Bekah. I thank God for her every day. Even though she's 2,039 miles away from me (according to Google Earth), I could feel the love, the concern, the sympathetic pain all the way. I never even told her most of my problems, but she knew..... somehow. (We both agree that it's because we're soooo much alike, it's scary sometimes. No joke.... I'm her BJ :P ily sis) She helped me soooo much. Helped make me stand. Helped make me get strong. The pain wore off eventually, and now I'm coping with this new life... at least, trying to. I wish I could be with my sisters, my different moms, my brothers, my buddies, but I know that even though 1,000,000,000,000 miles could NEVER ever separate my love for them. They're ALWAYS gonna be with me. I'll see some strange thing that will remind me of them and I'll smile and hurt just a little, but my smile and God's help conquers it. Anyway, as I said, I turned from God for a few months. I didn't want him in. But, just this last Sunday, we were at church and there was a guest preacher there. Very good preacher. I learned that the best way to win a non-believer to Christ is to become his/her best friend. But that's for another time. :P He told us to flip to Ecclesiastes something (I don't remember lol) and my Bible stopped on Ecclesiastes 3. If you don't know that chapter, it's the 'time' chapter. I read it, because I remembered that I used to like it. This time it hit me differently. It showed me God has a purpose and time for anything and everything. A time to hurt. A time to smile. A time to change. After I read it a few times, I quietly prayed and asked Him to forgive me and control my life. It's soooo amazing how different you feel when He's in control. His mercy is over-whelming. I can't believe He'd still love me after hurting Him soooooooooooo much. It's just so amazing. So, now, I'm doing much better with my present condition and I'd like to say this to all those with similar problems: STOP!!!! Don't push God away. He wants to help. He wants to heal you. He wants you to hurt. I know that in about 37-38 days, I'm gonna be back with my girls, but only for a little bit. And I know, I'm gonna hurt when we leave again. Because this time, I don't know when I'll see them again. It's gonna hurt more than ever, but I know this, too: I'm gonna be fine. God is with me. I'll hurt, my girls will hurt, everyone will hurt at some point, but there is a time to hurt. God wants us to hurt so we can turn to Him so He can heal. It's all in God's hands.... His time. Just don't push God away like I did, because you will hurt yourself, everyone around you, and God. Give up, stop pushing. I'm putting the Ecclesiastes chapter passage on here, and I want you to read it. I mean REALLY read it. Analyze it. Soak it in. Understand it. I bolded and italicized the verses/phrases that hit me differently. That helped me see that EVERYTHING is in God's time. Ecclesiastes 3:1-14 To every thing there is a season, and a TIME for every purpose under the heaven: a time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted; a time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; a time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; a time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away; a time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak; a time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace. What profit hath he that worketh in that for which he laboreth? I have seen the travail which God hath given to the sons of men to be exercised in it. He hath made every thing beautiful in his TIME. Also He hath set the world in their heart, so that no man can find out the work that God maketh from the beginning to the end. I know that there is no good in them, but for a man to rejoice and to do good in his life, and also that every man should eat and drink and enjoy the good of all his labor: it is the gift of God. I know that whatsoever God doeth, it shall be for ever; nothing can be added to it, nor anything taken from it. And God doeth it, that men should fear before Him. "Oh, but no one knows, not you or me, it might be tomorrow or it might never be. Oh, but don't lose faith, put it in His hands, 'cause it might be that He might have a bigger plan than you had in mind. Miracles happen in God's time."
{Randy Houser, "In God's Time"}

Day 29

Day 29- A picture that can always make you smile. Brooke's rephrasing: "A few pictures that can always make you smile/laugh" ;) :P Once again, over one. ;) Brings back a lot of memories and laughter and fuuuuunnnn times. :D enjjjoyyyyy..... one more day of this :( *sniffsniff* :P jkjk.
redneck pistol. ;) toddler TX kids created this..... they're learning early :P Love you, Hallman Clan!!!!!!! *Heart*

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha....... GREAT times!!!!!!!!!!!! Love you, baby girl!!!! (yes, she is in my dress :P) *heart, hug, kiss*
hehehehehehehehehehe. Hannah helped me create this. love ya, girl!!!!! It's supposed to be crying, hence the little pancakes near it's "eyes" and the syrup is supposed to be tears but that came out kinda fast :P

My baby girl learning how to text at 4 and 1/2. :P She actually sent a REAL text to one of my friends when i was there. Brookie Unni coached her ;) She's a lil cutie *heartheartheartheartheartheart*

Me and one of my bffs at Nate and Tracy's wedding. fun couple of days with them peoples. :P

My baby girl. This makes me smile b/c she's so stinkin cute!!!! :D

'nuf said. :P My bros are pyromaniacs. :P I look soooooooooo interested.

Monday, March 28, 2011

Day 28

Day 28- A picture of something you're afraid of. I'm afraid of a few things, but these are the things I'm scared of the most!! Hate em all.
I HATE roller coasters!!! Been on 1 and it scared the daylights outta me. I hate the feeling of falling too :P HATE, DESPISE SHARKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Scare the daylights outta me too. Yes, i've seen sharks and i still hate them.
Snakes. We just did a Biology chapter on reptiles and we spent days learning of snakes.... scared me to even look at the pics. lol. Yes, i have seen a snake.... about a ft in front of me one time. That was a blind snake, too. My bros and a few of their friends have seen other snakes including a cottonmouth. TX is awesome :P

I'm soooooooooooooo scared of these things. HATE them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! scare everything out of me!!!!!!! Living in TX, we got to see alot of spiders. I touched a wolf spider, saw a few tarantulas, and a couple of jumping spiders. Scared me to death.

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Day 27

Day 27- A picture of yourself and a family member. Let me rephrase that..... "Some pictures of yourself and a few of your family members." :P Got 5 this time ;) Hope you enjoy and did you realize that there are only 3 days left of this?????? =O Well, just shows ya April is comin fast which means..... MAY IS COMING FAST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo excited :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D enjjjjjjjjjjoooooooooooyyyyyyyyyyy
Me and daddy *heart*

Me and Sissy *heart* love ya, sis!!! btw, you sneezed last night.... just sayin. ;) :P dart ya
Me and my baby girl *heart and long super duper tight hug* Love ya, baby!!!

A new one :D kinda grainy and dark, but oh well. me and my lil sis, Krista *heart* love ya, girl!!!!!

me and my maniatic bros. Is maniatic a word???????? well, it is now :P Love this pic.... shows you how fun life is/was in the Hamelund family. :P Love ya, Nathan and Josh.

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Day 26

Day 26- A picture of something that means alot to you.
Wellll......... they aren't things. :P These are only five of the most important people in my life. *heart* I love y'all!!!!!!!!! you're the bestest friends anyone could ever ask for. *heart* Hope to see y'all soon!!!!

My best friend and lil sis, Krista. *heart* love ya girl!!! :)

My best friend and big sis, Bekah, *heart* love ya, Sissy!!!! see ya soon I hope. :)

My best guy friend, Alex. *heart* Thanks for always being there for me. :)

The cutest gal ever and my lil sis, Charity. This was taken awhile ago but i thought it was cute. Love ya Baby Girl!!!!!!!!!! *heart and hug* See you in May I hope :)

My best friend and other lil sis, Hannah. *heart* love ya!!!!!!!! :)

Friday, March 25, 2011

Day 25

Day 25- A picture of your day.
My day has been very good.... very long... and slightly boring. Right now i am hungry!!!!!!!! Anyway, i thought this picture about summed it up. ;) I love this girl.... *heart* she's a cutie and i miss her something awful! Love ya, Charity!!!!!

How many said "awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww"???? :P ;) my day has been full of surprises, that's fr sure.

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Day 24

Day 24- A picture of something you wish you could change.
I don't have a pic of this because I couldn't find a good one to portray it. To be perfectly honest.... I wish I could change my standards. It's true. I guess you could say that I've changed since August last year. My views have changed alot and everything. But anyway, if i could change it i would but since I'm not 18 yet, i will abide by the standards my parents have set before me. Soooo, I'll keep smiling and waiting. :) ttyl *heart*

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Day 23

Day 23- A picture of your favorite book.
I think from now on I'm gonna put "pictures of..." :P I decided on three this time :D ennnjjjjjooooyyyyyyyssssss *heart*

All Lori Wick, btw.
Cassidy.... a new fav :D love this book.

Promise Me Tomorrow.... a very VERY good book!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love it!!! This is the book where I got the name "Rusty" from. :D I'm so much like the character in this book, it's weird. except, i have brown eyes... not violet :P

My first ever fav book.... Where The Wild Rose Blooms. A very good/romantic book. All these are Christian fiction; this one and the one above are part of a four book series called the Rocky Mountain Memories Series.... veryveryvery good. In order: "Where The Wild Rose Blooms", "Whispers of Moonlight", "To Know Her By Name", and "Promise Me Tomorrow". they do revolve around the same characters.... kinda.. sorta. :P I highly recommend them!!!!

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Days 21 and 22

Howdy. So yesterday, I was slightly busy... had to clean house then study for our exams this week, also had an awesome vid chat with one of my friends. :P ;) Anyway... here's the pic for yesterday and today. :D ennnnnjjjjoooooyyyyyssssss. *heart*

Day 21- A picture of something you wish you could forget.
weeellllll...... I don't have a pic of anything, because all the things that were the moments I wish i could forget were quite important in my life. They helped me get stronger. If i could forget ONE thing it would be pain. I wish I could forget about all the pains I went through. Backstabbing, good-byes, horrible teasings, etc. But if I forgot them, I wouldn't be as strong as I am and I wouldn't be where I am now. :) lol. so..... on to todays :D
Day 22- a picture of something you wish you were better at.
lol... best pic I could get to describe it :P I wish I could be better at singing and playing guitar.... kinda like Taylor Swift :P I LOVE her songs!! Especially Mine, Love Story, Untouchable, Our Song, and Breathe.

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Catch Up

Howdy!! sooo... we went to Michigan Thursday and stayed the weekend, just got back. My bro had to do his Science Project over there, because we weren't sure if the base here would let us blow stuff up. :P That's the reason i wasn't posting much- no internet access. :( Anyway, here's the pics that I missed and yes... they ARE backwards. lol.

Day 20- A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel.
EUROPE!!! hands down. :D:D:D:D Always wanted to go there again. I was born in Germany but we moved to TX when I was 2 and 1/2 so I don't remember it much.

Day 19- A picture of you when you were little.
:D Wasn't I cute?? ;) :P

Day 18- A picture of your biggest insecurity.
I say my glasses. I hate them!!!! x-( They get in the way ALL.THE.TIME.

Day 17- A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently.
Music!!!!! :D:D:D:D I'm a MAJOR music person, I'd choose listening/playing music over movies or books lol. It's helped me through the hardest times. I have so many songs that I can relate to right now.